I'm getting ready for my kayak adventure tomorrow and I'm still thinking about the huge shark I just saw yesterday right off the beach in Manasquan Inlet when my phone rings. It's the doctor's office. I just got health benefits from my new job and went for my exam and they had to do some removals of lesions. The voice from the doctor's office said, "Your upper left back has Dyspalstic Nevus (means mole) with severe Atypia (amount of abnormal cells)." I'm scheduled for October 24th at 11am for surgery. I have to get blood work done and chest xrays to see if cancer has spread through out my body. I put the blood work and xrays off because I don't want to know and now I have no choice but to do it. I lose my job on Monday because I can't move to afford to move to North Jersey. I hope that my health benefits last until the end of the month or I'm going to be in the biggest financial bind of my life...
Thank god I've got kayaking. Thank god I'm going tomorrow. It's the only thing that keeps me from thinking about fucking cancer freckles that keeps trying to kill me. Maybe I'll be upgraded again Father Baba Booey from Malignant Melanoma Stage 2 back to 3 and lucky number 4?
I don't know...thank god for kayaking and that there is an ocean for me to cross.
It's time for me to bring out the 'King Kong' inside of me and cross the Atlantic Ocean and on October 24th beat this cancer bitch again...I've got this...I refuse to die from a freckle...refuse...unacceptable.
Message in a bottle. Is there anything more romantic then that? I'm going to drop two bottles out to sea telling someone who finds them who I am and to read my books. You think anyone will find them or just get run over like me?
That would be cool if they make it to Spain where I keep wanting to go but I'm never able to get to. A beautiful Spanish maiden finds the bottle, gets my books on Amazon, reads them all and falls madly in love with me. She flies to the US only to find my tombstone that reads, "Naked Author- Jason William Mitchiner tried to conquer the Literary World only to be taken by a freckle on his own back."
You think I will find my new love from a message in a bottle? Or only happens in movies like 'Cast Away' remember Tom Hanks finds those wings while he's stranded that leads him to his new love.
I hate wind. I've kayaked against it and it can be just as deadly as a shark in the water. Today there is a small craft advisory because it's so windy out. Tomorrow it's suppose to die down and then switch to the South wind which will be against me, a head wind. I'm getting to Coney Island in the morning and I'll try to kayak as hard and quickly as I can before the wind switches. Because once it does...the seas will build as well...strong winds and large seas aren't going to be ideal conditions for me on my 10ft kayak.
All I want in life is a book deal. I was born to write books and be an author. Do I write anything of literary worth like Hemingway? No. Can I entertain you with my books? Yes. I'll give you sex, fighting, love, death. I just won't do vampires or little gay hobits and wizards. Anything else, you've got it. Work with me Literary World. I rewrite anything. I''ll add more sex. I'll sit in a corner everyday far away from the sun writing books until I die.
Below is my fith book I'm working on now, Boston Wedding. It's not edited and it's a work in progress. But only read below this if you are interested in a book about two, rich, teenage lesbians, that fall in love and are pursued by other men that eventually ends in murder.
I hope I live to finish it for you with a big fat giant, bigger then any fake author juicehead guido fags from the Jerseyshore, book deal. That my friends will be a happy moment for me.
Enjoy...
January 25th,
1888
“George, don’t you find our daughter’s behavior a bit odd?”
“How do you mean dear?”
“I’ve never seen Alice
play with dolls or play tea like her girl friends do. She is always up in a tree and chasing after
bugs and such. She seems to prefer the
company playing with Frank and the horses then anything lady like.”
George put down the newspaper he
was reading next to his wife in the sun room of their decadent Tennessee
home and remarked, “Just because she doesn’t play with dolls does not mean our Alice
isn’t growing up to be a fine lady. And
it’s a good thing that she gets along well enough with her brother. Far better than I ever did with any of my
siblings. She has plenty of girl friends
that admire and respect her.”
George scoffed as he added, “And
when I take Alice in town on buggy
more then one of those young chaps does come calling for her.”
Sara asked, “Has she answered any
of these boy’s calls for her George?”
George said, “I think not! She is only 14 years old. Like I said, our Alice
is growing into a fine young lady!”
Sara said, “Very well George, if
you say so. I just have a feeling that
our Alice is just a little
different. Something about being a
mother, I just sense something else with Alice.”
George said, “There will be no more
discussing our any type of oddities of our daughter again. The only oddity I can see is sitting next to
me in this room with an over active imagination.”
Mrs. Mitchell said, “Very well
George, I won’t bring it up again.”
George picked up his paper and
before falling silent as he continued to read where he left off he replied,
“Good.”
January 25th 1891
The day was a cool crisp day in Memphis
Tennessee.
I was excited about the New Year starting and leaving the past behind
me. Everything in my past was confusing
and dull compared to what the future possibilities presented. A new family moved into a nearby home, the
Wards, and I have noticed one of exception that has caught my eye. Her name is Freda.
The day I noticed
her was over the summer on a day I climbed a large tree over looking a near by
lake that is used for swimming to cool off from the summer heat. I saw Freda with her older sister Josie
swimming in the lake together. I saw
Freda, who is 15, swimming in her white gown as the sun kissed her tan, olive
skin. Each time she rose from the water
I could see her full breasts, as the white gown clung to them tightly. She was only 15 but looked all the more of a
woman then Jo, her older sister that was already married. I nearly feel from my tree watching Freda
play in the water the day I first saw her.
It was a magical day for me. One
that sent the blood flowing through my body from my head to my toes as I
watched what appeared to be an angel dancing in front of me. What I noticed most of Freda was her
smile. It was a smile that was so big
and infectious; every ounce of me had to meet her and longed for that smile to
be reserved for only me. I sat in that
tree for as long as Freda and her sister were in the lake. Freda never knew I was there and watching her
but I was. And every day we are in
school together I have been. And just
now with the New Year having past, I finally feel the courage to meet her
acquaintance properly as a lady.
Chapter 2
I asked for Freda
to meet with me today, Saturday, earlier in the week at school. We both attend Higbee
School for girls together. I had my finest dress laid on my bed since
the day Freda agreed to meet with me, the red dress that my mother told me
brought out my dark brown eyes and my father said made my face look especially
fare and pretty. I sat down in front of
my make up mirror in my room and put some sweet perfume on and picked up my
hair brush. As I looked in the mirror
brushing my hair I kept thinking of the first time I saw Freda swimming in the
lake and couldn’t help but feel my self growing warm around my waist. I kept brushing my hair and imagining what it
would be like to have Freda standing next to me brushing my hair. I kept thinking of Freda in her white gown
and her large breasts rubbing against my arm and back as she did. I felt such a strong intensity of warmth
around my waist that my hand slid between my legs and I felt how moist I had
become with the thoughts of Freda. I
began to slide one finger and then two between my legs as I looked in the
mirror and smiled. I smiled in the
mirror as if I were looking directly at Freda.
I smiled as I intensified the thrusting of my fingers as I grew in
excitement knowing that Freda would be seeing this very face in just a little
while today. The thought of knowing that
I will be face to face with Freda today, hopefully alone, was too much and I
felt my entire body reach its climax.
When I was done I
rushed to get my dress on with some amount of difficulty as rushing to get on a
proper dress of a lady can be time consuming and exhausting and rushing seems
to only make the process even more difficult.
I swore to myself a couple of times frolicking around in my room and as
I went to open up my bedroom door, I swore one more time out loud as I noticed
my bare hands and arms still exposed. I
grabbed my white gloves from my make up chair and slid them over my hands. I looked in the mirror one last time and
smiled as I thought what a kind face Freda will see greeting her but the face I
want Freda to see is the one that was looking in the mirror as I was climaxing
thinking of her.
I went down stairs
and to the kitchen and asked my mother, “Where is some ribbon to tie to my
basket of cookies?”
Mrs. Mitchell, “Oh
there is some ribbon in the drawer in the hallway. You sure look and smell lovely for delivering
cookies to the Ward family.”
I grabbed a green
ribbon to match my dress and said, “Mother didn’t you tell me, ‘Once a lady
always a lady’”?
“Of course I did Alice
and you certainly do look like a quite a lady today.” Mrs. Mitchell smiled.
I continued, “And
I’m representing you and daddy too. The
Mitchell’s and I have to make a good impression.”
Just then my
father came walking into the kitchen and asked, “May I have one of these
cookies before all this sweetness is given away in good will?”
I said, “Of course
father.”
George grabbed a
cookie and began munching and asked, “Who is the basket of deliciousness for?”
I replied, “The
Wards.”
George said, “Ah
the family that just moved in this summer right? From Arkansas
I believe. John Ward, a planter and
businessman.”
I said, “Yes
Father.”
Mrs. Mitchell
asked, “Good, you know of the Wards then George?”
George replied, “I
know of John Ward but I do not know him.
I believe he still resides in Arkansas
at the present but his estate is managed by his daughters and their
husbands.”
Mrs. Mitchell
asked, “And are there sons at the Ward estate?”
George scoffed,
“Not that I’m aware of. Better off that
way as I see it too we don’t want any young man trying to snatch up our Alice.”
I smiled at my
father and said, “You will always be the only man in my heart daddy.”
I looked at my
mother and saw her stoic face glaring at me.
It was as if she wanted to just say what she was really thinking about
me but could not. I smiled at mother as I
could feel the tension in the air and grabbed my basket of cookies as I made my
exit from the kitchen and from the home.
Chapter 3
I began walking
down my street towards the Ward estate.
As I passed my best friends home Miss Lillie Johnson she came out to
great me seeing me pass.
Lillie said, “Alice
where are you taking that basket of cookies?”
I said, “I’m
taking them to Freda.”
Lillie replied,
“Oh the girl you haven’t stopped talking about since she moved in?”
I started walking
faster and didn’t even look at Lillie as I replied, “You know the answer to
that.”
Lillie sped up her
walk to keep up with me and snatched a cookie.
I stopped walking
and looked at Lillie and said, “Put the cookie back into the basket.”
Lillie had the
cookie up to her mouth about to take a bite and as she stared into my eyes she
knew just how serious I was.
I said, “I do not
wish to have to repeat myself Lillie.”
I started to move
towards Lillie and she threw the cookie in to the basket. I turned from her and started my brisk walk
towards Freda’s home.
Lillie shouted as
I walked away, “You know if you give Freda all of those cookies you are going
to make her fat and then you will wish you had shared your cookies with me!”
Chapter 3
As I made it to
the Ward Estate a beautiful red cardinal came gliding down right in front of
me. I looked at the cardinal and thought
how proud and elegant it was with it’s red chest displayed so admirably on top
of the bushes.
I looked at myself
in my red dress and said, “We are one in the same today Mr. Cardinal.”
I started to notice the white roses that were
in the bushes that went along their estate.
I bent down and picked a couple of the roses for Freda. When I came to the door I knocked several
times and then I was greeted by Freda’s older sister, Josie.
Josie said, “Oh
welcome Alice. Freda told us you were coming over today.”
I said, “Thank
you.”
Josie said, “Here
let me take those for you.”
I said,
“Thanks. I made the cookies for all of
you.”
Josie replied,
“That is so kind of you. Who are the
flowers for?”
I said, “For
Freda.”
Josie asked, “Are
these from our bush garden?”
Just then Freda
entered the living room wearing a yellow and white dress. She looked radiant with her dark black hair
and blue eyes.
Freda took the
flowers and said, “Oh I needed some flowers to put in my dress.” She smiled at me as she pinned the roses to
her dress.
Chapter 4
Freda said, “It’s
a little too cold to go for a walk and since this is the first time you have
been over why don’t you come up and I’ll show you my room?”
I replied, “Ok.”
Freda turned to
Josie and said, “I’m taking Alice
up in to my room to play.”
Jo replied, “Fine
but don’t stay up there for too long and make me have to come up for dinner.”
Freda replied,
“Sure Jo Jo.”
Freda grabbed my
hand and led me up the dark stairs towards her room. The hallway was not very well lit up for such
a large estate however Freda seemed to glow even in the darkness. She looked like a shining beacon radiating
life throughout her home. She opened up
her room and brought me inside. I first
noticed Freda’s large bed with four corner posts and dolls on her bed and in
her room. I never a single doll in my
room or in my possession and never asked for one. Freda asked for me to sit beside her on her
bed which I did. I looked at Freda and I
couldn’t believe how magnificent she looked right now in front of me. We spoke when we could at Higbee
School for Girls, but it was
nothing like having her alone in the privacy of her room that made this so
special.
Freda placed her
hand on mine and asked me with a giggle, “So what boys have come calling for
you?”
I replied, “Oh the
only boys that have called upon me are when I’m in town with father in our
buggy. But no boys have been so bold as
to come to our home to ask to see me.”
Freda asked,
“Really? But you are older then me. I thought for sure a couple of boys have come
for you by now?”
I replied, “No.
Not one.”
Freda said with
another giggle, “I’ve had several come to the home asking for me.”
I was surprised,
“Wow three all ready and you are only fifteen!”
Freda said, “Oh
these boys don’t seem to care.”
I replied, “Boys
never seem to care about anything other just getting what they want.”
Freda said, “Yeah
I know they are so persistent and pushy when they come calling to the house and
on the streets.”
We both smiled at
each other and looked into each other’s eyes.
Freda then asked,
“But if no boys have come to call on you then that means you have never even kissed
a boy?”
I said, “No I have
never.”
Freda replied,
“Oh.”
We sat there in
silence for a moment and I could feel like there was an opening in the air that
needed to be filled by me and I said, “But I have kissed a girl.”
Freda replied,
“Oh?”
I reached over and
touched Freda’s hand and said with a smile, “Yes, my best friend Lillie
Johnson. You know her from school.”
Freda said, “Oh,
yes, Lillie. I like her, she is
nice.” Freda said smiling at me.
“Well we kiss
quite often for practice. It’s just the
same as kissing a boy but I imagine a bit softer and sweeter.” I smiled at Freda and squeezed her hand in
comfort.
I leaned in
towards Freda and asked her, “Would you like to try it with me?”
Freda looked at
me, her eyes were dancing with excitement looking into mine and she replied,
“Ok, but I’m nervous!”
I said, “Nothing
to be nervous about.”
And smiled as I leaned even closer to her and
said, “Just close your eyes and keep your mouth half open.”
Freda closed her
eyes and asked as I came in to kiss her, “Why do I have to keep my mouth half
ope…”
I kissed Freda
very gently, passionately and slowly as we kept squeezing each other’s hands in
comfort.
I don’t know how
long I kissed Freda for but it was the greatest kiss I had ever experienced
with another person my whole life.
Kissing Lillie and my other girl friends never made me feel the way
Freda had made me feel at that moment.
It wasn’t just kissing Freda that triggered so much excitement through
my entire body it was also the scent of her skin and hair, the softness of her
hair, the way her young full breasts pushed up against mine. I ran my fingers through her hair as we
kissed and I could hear her softly moan in pleasure. I wanted so much more from Freda and I knew
when we were kissing that she would give me all that I desired.
When we were done
kissing we just looked into each other’s eyes for a while and then I said, “You
did great for your first kiss.”
Freda responded,
“Thanks I was nervous but I like practicing with you. You make me feel very comfortable.”
We both kept
sitting there looking at each other and smiling at each other.
Chapter 5
After our first
kiss together Freda and I spent another hour in her room talking about other
girls from our school, fashion, and the like.
But there was never a hint of uncomforted thoughts or feelings between
us. It was quite the opposite I would
have never left her room if her older sister Josie hadn’t come to interrupt
us.
Josie, “Excuse me
girls. It’s that time where I do have to
feed Freda.”
Freda asked, “Can
Alice stay for dinner?”
Josie replied, “I
hadn’t expected extra company tonight for super Freda. You didn’t mention this to me when you told
me Alice would be stopping by
today.”
I said, “Oh
nothing to bother yourself about. I’ve
stayed much longer then I intended as well.”
I looked at Freda and smiled and she smiled
back at me.
Freda said, “Then
another night soon! And maybe you can
stay for the night as well?”
Josie said, “Ok
Freda, but Alice has to make it sure it’s ok with her parents too.”
Josie walked us
both down stairs towards the front door and I looked at Freda and I wanted to
give her another deep passionate kiss but with Josie standing next to her, I
gave her a quick peck on the cheek and said, “Thank you so much for having me
over Freda. I can’t wait to see you in
school on Monday.”
Freda said,
“Goodbye Alice. I’ll see you on Monday.”
Chapter 6
I sat at the
dinner table and I could still feel my cheeks blushing and my body warm from
the intensity of being with Alice.
Josie’s husband
Hugo commented, “Freda you look even more lovely then usual today.” Hugo smiled and gave me a wink.
Josie said,
“That’s because Freda received another admirer today Hugo.”
Hugo said,
“Another baker boy from the streets caught your eye Freda?”
I replied, “No
Hugo, it’s one of my schoolmates and she is quite lovely. She wore a wonderful red dress today made of
the finest silk that felt so soft to the touch…”
I drifted off in thought of Alice
when I noticed the gaze of Josie and Hugo staring at me as they had stopped
eating supper.
I looked at them both and smiled as Josie
added, “Well it’s good that Freda makes more girlfriends now that we have moved
here. Daddy wasn’t thinking about how
hard it must be on a girl Freda’s age to have to leave all of her childhood
friends and start over here in Memphis.”
Hugo said, “Well
your father has to do what is best for the family. His success with his crops
in Gold Dust, Arkansas and his
merchant shop here in town is unbridled.
I’m proud to run it for him while he is away in Arkansas.”
Hugo smiled at me
and my sister as Josie rubbed him saying, “Oh Hugo you are just happy to have a
fat cat job that requires little work for you to do as daddy brings in all the
merchandise for you to sell.”
Hugo with a mouth
full of still un chewed bread said, “Now I object to that. I do a good job keeping the books straight on
all goods sold and returning a large profit for the Ward Estate. But keep in mind I have the toughest job of
all.”
My sister and I
both asked at the same time, falling for the bait, “What job is that?”
Hugo replied with
his cheeks full of bread like a squirrel’s cheeks full of nuts, “I have to keep
dear Josie happy and we all know how hard of a job that is!”
Hugo winked at me
as Josie said, “Oh you are awful Hugo!
Freda is young and impressionable.
She is going to think all men are of your ilk. That all men are destined to become fat and
lazy after they have conquered the challenge of acquiring their one true life
mate.”
Hugo asked,
“Aren’t we though?”
Josie replied, “I
can tolerate your laziness but I swear to you Hugo, if you lose that cute face
of yours and become fat I will see to it that daddy cuts you right out of the
Ward Estate altogether.”
Hugo swallowed all
of the bread that had been stored in his cheeks and shouted, “Oh my! Then I had better make sure its nothing but
diet and exercise for me!”
Hugo sprang up
from his seat and began to do a series of push ups as I giggled and began
clapping for each one that he did.
Josie said, “Don’t
encourage him Freda it’s all he wants is constant attention from us.”
I couldn’t help
but continue to laugh and giggle, just as Josie had warned of Hugo it did
encourage him as he began to jump on and off his chair showing off his agility
and strength. Even Josie began to giggle
and began to clap with me during Hugo’s performance. Finally Hugo took a bow as we applauded.
Hugo asked, “Now
where is Freda going to find a man like me Jo?”
Josie said, “Well
maybe it’s better that she just sticks with Alice
for now before someone the likes of you starts to interfere in her life like
you did mine.”
“Aww, but it was
well worth it wasn’t it dear?” Hugo
asked as he took a napkin and batted away the sweat from his forehead and then
walked over to Josie and gave her a kiss on the cheek.
Josie replied,
“Yes it was dear. Yes it was.” Josie and Hugo smiled at each other.
I sat there
looking at Josie and Hugo together and marveled at their happiness. It’s what I wanted to feel with someone, it’s
what I was longing for, and something that I thought for the first time in my
life I may be feeling.
Chapter 8
Lillie greeted me
as I approached Higbee School
for Girls.
She asked, “Well
Alice how was your courtship yesterday of your beloved Freda?”
I smiled at Lillie
and just as I was about to respond I saw Freda arriving to school on horse
carriage. Josie was with her and I could
see her converse with Freda briefly before freeing her to me. I watched Freda walk towards me and I
marveled at her natural beauty in her soft blue dress. She made all the other girls seem so fare and
plane as she passed them. She smiled at
me with such a beautiful smile showing all of her bright white teeth that
seemed to make her face glow even brighter then it already appeared. I could
feel my heart beat so strong that I thought it may burst through my chest.
As soon as Freda
was near enough to me I grabbed her hand and squeezed it as I leaned forward
and kissed her on both of her ruby red cheeks.
I could smell lilac perfume she had placed behind each ear as I did
so.
I said, “Good
morning Freda.”
Freda replied,
“Good morning Alice.”
Lillie added,
“What no morning greeting for me that way Alice?”
I turned my smile
from Freda for a moment and frowned at Lillie and then returned my smiling gaze
towards Freda. The school bell began to
chime as class was to begin.
I escorted Freda into school and to her seat. She sat two rows in front of me next to
another girl. I sat next to Lillie
Thompson who I had been my best friend and classmate since starting to attend Higbee
School for Girls. This was our final year for Lillie and I
before our graduation.
Chapter 9
Our Teacher
entered the room, Mrs. Bloomfield. She
was in her 40s and still kept herself pretty and neat each day she taught at
Higbee. She was a beautiful lady in her
early years and procured a wealthy banker in town but it was common knowledge
that she still seeks the company and attention of other men. That seems to be the case with most women of
notice in town. The women that are of
exceptional beauty receive so much attention from men that many find it
something they can not live without, the constant attention of men. I always wondered about this, if this is how
beautiful women act just in Memphis, Tennessee,
or if it is how beautiful women act everywhere through out the world?
I never wanted or
would seek the attention of men, but of course I don’t have the striking beauty
of my wonderful Freda. But some boys have
called for me, but I believe that is just how all boys are, calling on any
women they lay eyes upon with no discretion.
That’s what I find so reprehensible about men, is their blatant lack of
discretion with the women they keep company.
I’ve heard of men in town that have kept the company with so many women
at the same time, whether they are married or not. Men are insatiable; they are plagued with a
mental illness that keeps their heart and mind from ever connecting to be
satisfied with one woman that can keep them happy.
I don’t have this
illness those men posses, as I looked at the back of the neck of Freda in front
of me. Her hair was pulled up into her
hat with a blue ribbon that draped off it near the back of her neck. I smiled as I thought to myself; no I am
quite happy and satisfied with only one woman, my dear Freda.
We had our lunch
recess and Freda, Lillie and I sat together outside conversing of the days
thoughts.
Freda asked,
“Isn’t Mrs. Bloomfield quite a lovely lady at her age?”
Lillie said, “I
think so, I hope I look as good as she maintains at her age.”
I said, “Mrs.
Bloomfield is and has always been too fast of a woman with the men around
town.”
Freda asked, “Too
fast?”
Lillie said, “Too
fast in Memphis means she is too
easy with too many men. It’s a
reputation no lady wants to be known for, that you can be certain of.”
Freda said, “Well
I think Mrs. Bloomfield is enchanting.”
I said, “Mrs.
Bloomfield is a whore.”
Freda and Lillie
gasped at my boldness and covered their mouths.
Then Freda and Lillie looked at each other and began to smile over their
school girl shyness and then turned to laughter.
The school bell
chimed as lunch recess was over and we had to return to class and the lessons
for the day.
Chapter 10
I sat at my desk
as Mrs. Bloomfield kept lecturing about something that I paid no mind to as I
began to sketch the back of Freda’s neck on a piece of paper. Then I began to string soft words together of
love for my dear sweet Freda:
Freda, since you
moved to Memphis all I wanted is to
see ya
Once I got to see
ya, my dear Freda, all I wanted to do is kiss ya
Once I got to kiss
ya, my dear Freda, all I want to do is…
I folded up the
piece of paper and kicked the girl’s chair in front of me from under my
desk. She turned around for a moment and
I handed her the note that read Freda on the front and I waived for her to pass
it up to Freda. I watched my note make
its way to Freda who took the note and I saw her open it.
Freda turned
around quietly at her desk and winked at me.
I felt the warm rush of blood consumer my body and around my waste. I felt so warm and a sensation that I may
have peed in my dress, but it was not urine, it was something warmer and very
wet between my legs. The more I wondered
if Freda felt the same sensation the wetter I became.
The school bell
chimed signaling the end of the day.
Mrs. Bloomfield
said, “Don’t forget what your learned today girls. There will be a test on Friday!”
Many of the girls
groaned in protest and I made my way to Freda quickly after class and grabbed
her arm as I asked, “Why don’t you spend some time with Lillie and I after
class to study for our test?”
Freda looked at
me, smiled and said, “I would love to Alice. Let me give notice to my sister Josie as she
will be waiting for me out side.”
I said, “Sure
Freda, do whatever you have to do.
Lillie and I will be waiting for you inside. We will try to discover more of what our test
will be about on Friday.”
I smiled at Freda
and resisted every urge within me to kiss her on the lips. Freda smiled and I let go of her arm as she
left the classroom to discuss with her sister Josie.
Lillie and I were
discussing our work assignment and the test with Mrs. Bloomfield when Freda re
entered the room.
I turned around to
greet Freda and asked, “Well?”
Freda replied, “My
sister said that I may come over but I must return to my house for super.”
I looked at Lillie
and Freda and smiled, “Wonderful we will have a study party.”
Lillie said, “We
should all come to my place as my parents are away for some time on business
trip.”
I said, “Perfect.”
I grabbed Freda’s
hand and squeezed it as I smiled at Freda.
Mrs. Bloomfield
remarked, “Why you girls are very excited to study for my test together. I wish the rest of the girls shared your kind
enthusiasm.”
Lillie said, “If
all the girls in our class shared their enthusiasm the whole town would be up
side down.”
Mrs. Bloomfield
asked, “What?”
I said, “Lillie
just means if all of us girls started to take schooling so seriously the town
would be run by women and not men.”
Mrs. Bloomfield,
Freda, and Lillie all began laughing at this remark and I pulled Freda’s hand
to lead her out of the classroom as quickly as I could get away with her.
Mrs. Bloomfield
shouted as we made our quick dash from her classroom, “Have fun girls! Maybe one of you will become a fine teacher
like me one day?”
All of us girls continued
to laugh during the horse and buggy back to Lillie house at the thought of one
of us turning into a quick and easy teacher as Mrs. Bloomfield had become.
Chapter 11
When we arrived
back to Lillie’s home it was a rather mild winter day in Memphis
and it felt rather pleasant to be outside so we all relaxed on the porch
together gossiping about other girls at Higbee.
Lillie asked,
“Well it would be rather rude of me to invite you both over and not offer you
both some tea.”
Freda and I said,
“Yes, please.”
The moment Lillie
went inside I stood in front of Freda and said, “I’ve wanted to do this to you
all day at school.”
I leaned over to
Freda and kissed her. I could smell her
scent from her hair and I began to moan and I could here Freda like wise. We heard Lillie approaching and we began to
slow down our kissing and as we stopped I leaned forward to smell Freda just
behind her ear. It wasn’t just Freda’s
beauty that was so captivating but her scent that intoxicated me. I inhaled as much of it as I could like the
greatest drug I had ever found.
Lillie came to us
and coughed a little to announce herself and break up our engagement but we
continued to hold hands and smile at one another.
I took the pitcher
of tea and poured it into a glass and said to Freda, “Here is your tea my
lady.”
Freda giggled and
said, “Thank you Alice.”
Lillie said,
“Jesus you two, I make the tea and no one offers me any.”
Lillie continued,
“Look at you both looking at each other this way. I hope you both aren’t going to carry on like
this about town? You will cause a stir.”
Freda protested,
“But Alice is my new acquaintance since I’ve moved to Memphis. I need a companion to ease me into the
adjustment of the change.”
I squeezed Freda’s
hand in support.
Lillie said, “It’s
not me that will cause a stir. Alice
kept me in the same company long before you moved to Memphis
my sweet dear Freda.”
I shot Lillie the
most menacing look I felt my face could put together as I felt my nose crinkle
with my eyebrows pressed as low and close together as I could make them.
I interjected and
said, “I’m not ashamed of my feelings for Freda. Nor do I intend to hide them in anyway.”
Lillie said, “That
is fine for you Alice but what of the upcoming dance at the Church Social? Do you intend to go with Freda? Is she to be your date?”
I hesitated for a
moment as I hadn’t thought of that yet.
Lillie continued,
“Every boy will come calling for Freda as they are all curious of the new
pretty girl in town.”
I could feel
myself growing hot with anger at the thought of that.
“And boys will
want their conquest of Freda just as you do Alice.”
Freda gasped and
covered her mouth.
I jumped up and
said, “That’s enough of that kind of talk Lillie!”
Lillie said,
“Relax, this is just something you two need to think about if you are going to
publicly go about your business together.”
I sat back down
next to Freda and grabbed her hand and rubbed it as I asked Lillie, “What do
you suggest we do then Lillie?”
Lillie said, “My
older cousin is from back East, New York City
and she stayed with me over the summer.
She told me how more metropolitan and progressive the people are in the
North East of their ideas, fashion, and art.”
Freda asked, “But
how does that guide us in our travels here in Memphis?”
Lillie looked at
us both as she said, “Boston Wedding.”
“What does that
mean Lillie?” I asked.
“My cousin had
affairs New England and told me that women that choose
to live together do so openly and commonly in Boston
and it’s known as a Boston Wedding.”
I looked at Freda
and she looked at me with her large beautiful smile and I knew I would travel
anywhere as long as I could remain by her side.
I squeezed her hand again and then a horse and buggy arrived in front of
Lillie’s house.
It was Lillie’s
parents and they approached their porch and greeted us, “Good afternoon girls”
said Lillie’s father.
“Hello Mr.
Thomas.”
“Hello daddy.”
Replied Lillie
Mrs. Thomas asked,
“Will you girls be joining us for supper this evening?”
Freda replied,
“Thank you so much Mrs. Thomas but my sister Josie insists that I come home for
every supper, at least until she feels that we are more settled with everyone
here in Memphis.”
Mrs. Thomas said,
“Well you seem to be settling in very well in town with the excellent company
you are keeping with my Lillie and Alice.”
Mrs. Thomas put
her hand on her daughters shoulder and smiled at Lillie and I.
Mr. Thomas said,
“Well at least take the buggy home as it’s getting dark out now and the chill
of winter is sure to return upon us soon this evening.”
“Thank you Mr.
Thomas.” Said Freda
I kept holding
Freda’s hand and said, “I’ll accompany you back home Freda.”
Freda and I held
each other in the buggy back to Freda’s house, stealing kisses while we could
when the driver wasn’t becoming distracted by us and turning back nearly
running his horse off the road several times.
Each time he did we stopped kissing and smiled at him.
We arrived back to
Freda’s estate and I walked with her up to her door. Freda said, “I would invite you for super Alice
but Josie has strict rules that I must inform her ahead of time before I bring
company.”
“That’s ok
Freda. I had a marvelous day with you.”
I looked at Freda
and as she looked at me with her dancing eyes and her big smile, I felt
blessed. I thought to myself, how can
something so wonderful, pure, full of life and energy, be so interested in
me? I leaned forward to kiss Freda
and suddenly the porch light came on and the door opened.
Josie said, “There
you are Freda! I was growing concerned
with it getting dark out where you might be.”
Freda said, “Don’t
worry so much about me. I have made
lovely new friends from school.” Freda
looked at me and smiled.
“Thank you Alice
for keeping a watchful eye on my little sister.”
I curtsied and
said, “The pleasure is all mine Josie.”
Josie said, “Now
get ready for super Freda. Hugo has been
waiting impatiently to eat.”
Josie turned to me
as she said, “I’m sorry Alice,
I didn’t know you would be accompanying Freda this evening.”
“Not a problem, I
know these street all too well since childhood and enjoy a brisk walk in the
cool winter air.”
Josie opened the
door wide to for Freda to enter and just before she did, I grabbed Freda’s arm
and whispered in her ear, “Boston Wedding.”
Freda giggled as
she entered her home and Josie looked at her queerly.
I thought to
myself and smiled, Haha Josie when was the last time your love, Hugo ever
made you laugh like that?
After the door
shut I wondered what Freda was thinking within the house? I wondered what her conversations would be of
me about at the dinner table? I wondered
what Freda’s thoughts would be when she entered her bed to lay down for the
night?
I started my walk
back home and even with the chill of the night, I felt the immense warmth from
within with my feelings of love for Freda.
Chapter 12
I sat down for
super with Josie and Hugo and folded my napkin on my lap making a perfect
rectangle over my dress.
Josie asked, “What did you learn in school
today?”
“That Mrs.
Bloomfield is a quick and easy woman and wishes us to become one like her.”
Hugo burst into
laughter and Josie proclaimed, “Freda!
Really that is no way for a lady to speak at the table.”
Josie looked at
her husband’s uncontrollable immature reaction and continued, “Or for you to
act anywhere at all.”
I looked down at
my food and said, “I do apologize it’s just what is said by my other classmates
at Higbee.”
Josie said, “Yes,
well I think you should take a break from your classmates at Higbee.”
I looked up at
Josie perplexed and Josie continued, “There is a church social coming
soon. I think it’s a good idea for you
to attend and meet some of the local boys about town.”
Hugo picked up a
large piece of meat from his plate with his hands and began to shove it in his
mouth in quite a barbaric fashion and said with his mouth full of meat, “I’ve
heard some of the young men that have frequented the shop mention your name
Freda. You have not gone unnoticed here
in Memphis since we’ve moved here,
you know?”
“I’ve heard some
of the boy’s cackles and bellows towards me while in buggy through town. Thank you Hugo for noticing for me.”
Hugo smiled at me
with half chewed meat stuck into his teeth.
Josie said, “Good
then Freda, you will be attending the church social then.”
“So I may become a
quick and easy lady like you and Mrs. Bloomfield ask me to be?”
Hugo began his
childish boyhood laughter and Josie said, “Really Freda that is enough of that
kind of talk out of you!”
I said nothing and
just stared at my sister and as she asked, “Do you understand me Freda?”
I replied, “I
understand that you want me to attend the church social and I will.”
“Good.” Josie said without lifting her head up from
her plate as she cut a piece of meat.
“But not without
my girlfriends from Higbee by my side.”
Josie stopped
cutting her meat and looked at me as I continued, “As my aids to protect me
from the advances of the less noble men of Memphis,
the ones that do not show the class and self discipline as our beloved Hugo.”
Hugo looked at
Josie his face greasy from eating like an animal and then they looked at me and
I could feel my stomach turn a bit as I looked at the odd and unhappy couple
sitting in front of me at the table.
Chapter 13
As I came into the
house I was greeted by my mother who said, “You’ve missed super again Alice.”
“That’s ok
mother. I wasn’t hungry.”
“Oh out playing
with your friends all evening I imagine.”
Mother replied
“Yes mother and
I’ve invited Freda to spend the weekend with me.”
Mrs. Mitchell
looked at me peculiarly but said nothing.
I hadn’t asked Freda of any such thing but it was all that I could think
of during the walk back to my home.
I sat in my chair
twiddling my hair thinking of Freda and then retired to bed. I spent another
sleepless night tossing and turning and touching myself as I thought of Freda
alone in her bed and hoping she was doing the same.
After morning
breakfast I left right away for Freda’s house.
I reached Freda’s home and knocked on the door.
Josie answered the
door and said, “Oh, good morning Alice.”
“Morning Jo, is
Freda available?” I asked.
“Was she expecting
you?” Josie asked.
I said, “Well I
was just going for my morning walk and thought I would stop by.”
Josie kept the
door cracked open and looked behind her shoulder and said, “You know Alice
I don’t think she has presented herself this morning from her room.”
I said, “Oh I see
Jo. Well, I was just hoping to catch
her.”
Josie said, “Well
I’ll let her know that you stopped by Alice.”
Josie closed the
door and as I turned around to leave the door opened back up and Freda burst
from the home like the morning sun climbing into the morning sky.
Freda said, “Wait
Alice. Jo didn’t know that I was already
up. How are you this morning?”
I looked at Freda
who looked even more stunning to me then the night before after I had dreamt of
every detail of her eyes, lips, and face.
I walked up to her and smiled at Freda and pressed my lips against hers. I grabbed her around her waist and herd her
moan and then I said, “That’s how I am this morning.” Smiling at Freda.
“Oh Alice! I..I..I don’t know what to say.”
I said, “Some
things don’t need to be said Freda. I
will show you that.”
I grabbed Freda’s
hand and we began to go for a morning walk together. Neither of us said anything, but our smile
and gaze towards each other said it all.
I knew I loved Freda from the moment I saw her and I knew Freda was
falling in love with me.
As we walked Freda
turned to me and said, “Do you know Jo and Hugo
are making me go to the church social tomorrow?”
I said, “Oh. I didn’t know you were attending that.”
I felt my anger
shoot through me as I thought of all of the boys that would be trying to soot
my Freda.
I said, “Why don’t
we go together Freda?”
Freda looked at me
and smiled, “There is no one I’d rather have accompany me to the church social
then you Alice.”
I grabbed Freda by
her waste and pulled her close to me. I
smelled her neck and the scent of her skin was so intoxicating. It made me feel warmth throughout my body and
intensity between my legs as we began kissing again for a long period of
time. The softness her lips is what
startled me most of Freda. There was a
softness, sweetness and innocence of everything with Freda. To me she was the purist form of an angel on
earth that God had created. She was mine
and I wanted to protect and cherish all of Freda for the rest of my life.
I walked Freda
back to her house and asked her, “Will you be available tonight for us to see
each other?”
Freda replied,
“I’m not sure if I can get away tonight.
Josie said that we have company coming tonight that she wants me to help
entertain.”
I said, “Oh I
see.”
Freda said, “Maybe
I could come out for a quick moment to see you.”
I smiled and said
to Freda, “I will come to your house tonight around 8pm and stand outside your walkway with a lit candle for
you to see.”
Freda smiled as
she replied, “Ok, Alice. I’ll look for
your candle this evening.”
Freda turned to
open her door to go back inside and I said, “Wait Freda. I need something from you.”
I grabbed Freda
tightly pressing our chests against each other and I slid my hand down grabbing
her buttocks and I kissed Freda. Freda’s
body was warm and I could feel her relax it as I pulled her closely into
mine. I put my other hand over her other
buttocks and pulled them apart as I kept kissing her. Freda began to moan loudly and then suddenly
she pulled away as she seemed startled by her own actions.
Freda said, “I’m
sorry Alice.”
I asked, “Was
something wrong Freda?”
Freda said, “Why
no Alice it’s not that. It’s just…I’ve never experienced or done
anything like this. It’s all so new to
me and…”
“And what
Freda?” I asked
“And I feel
nervous.”
I said, “There is
nothing to be nervous about Freda. This
is all natural.”
Freda said, “Ok,
Alice.”
Freda then kissed
me on my lips and said, “I’ll look for your candle tonight.”
Then she opened
the door and went back inside.
I began walking back to my home and
all my thoughts fell on my love for Freda.
As I was passing Lillie Johnston’s home she called for me from her
porch.
I shouted back to
Lillie from the street, “Oh Lillie I didn’t even see you on your porch!”
“Come over here Alice!”
Lillie called me over again.
I walked up to
Lillie’s porch and said, “Hello Lillie.”
Lillie said, “Well
aren’t you beaming from ear to ear. You
must be returning from Freda’s house.”
I didn’t say
anything and just smiled at Lillie.
Lillie continued,
“Well she is a beautiful girl Alice and she has caught the attention of all of
the men of Memphis.”
My smile began to
fade at the thought of that.
Lillie asked, “Is
Freda going to tomorrow’s church social?”
“Yes.”
“Will you be going
with her to protect her from all of the boys?”
“Yes.”
All of my
happiness began to fade as fear and dread began to consume me thinking of all
of the men that would be approaching Freda tomorrow.
Lillie asked, “How
do you plan on keeping your love’s heart affection on you and not on another
sootier?”
I stood up from
the chair on Lillie’s porch as I had grown uncomfortable thinking of the
impending threats that were coming.
I said, “I am
capturing her heart. Once I have Freda’s
heart no man can take it from me. They
will only get the shell of the woman that only I will posses.”
Lillie said, “Ah
that is what you need to do. She is
young enough and she trusts you, kind of like I did.”
I smiled at Lillie
and said, “Oh Lillie we just shared young love not True Love like I am
experiencing with Freda.”
Lillie replied,
“Well you better act fast to capture your True Love’s heart because the men of Memphis
will use things that you do not posses.”
Lillie put her
hand under her dress and began to push out her hand from between her legs and
we both began to laugh.
I kissed Lillie
farewell and went back to my house to find a big, long, white candle to light that
would be easily visible for Freda to see tonight.
After super I
excused myself and went off to my room and retrieved the candle.
I headed out the door and my mother asked,
“Where are you off to at this time of night Alice?”
I replied, “Oh
just seems like a nice night for a strole.”
“That’s unusual to
see you with a candle Alice as the
streets are fairly lit along the walks.
Are you going somewhere else?”
I said, “No
mother. Just some spots of the streets
the lanterns cast shadows that frighten me.”
My father bellowed
from the living room, “Jesus, Sara let the girl go.”
I smiled at my
mother and proceeded to leave the house.
I heard my mother
utter under her breathe, “All the years I’ve known you Alice, I’ve never known
you to be frightened of anything.”
I hurried to the
Ward’s estate and as I heard the nearby church bell’s chime 8 o’clock. I lit the
candle as I stood outside of Freda’s home hopping she would see me and be able
to leave her party to see me.
Then by the window
nearest the front door I saw her head peer out and I could see her warm smile
greeting me.
She came rushing
out of from the front door and I felt myself grow nervous with excitement as
she greeted me.
“Oh there you are
my wonderful Alice!” Freda proclaimed as she draped her long arms
over my body and squeezed me.
I started kissing
Freda in quick little kisses all over her mouth and face and Freda said, “We
are having a lovely party inside Freda.
I want you to join me.”
I said, “I would
love to Freda but I thought it was a private affair and Jo won’t approve of my
company?”
Freda said, “Oh
don’t worry about all of that nonsense.
Hugo has emptied decanters as he keeps all the glasses filled with wine,
including mine.”
I smiled at Freda
and replied, “Ok Freda if you insist.”
Freda and I
embraced each other and kissed each other passionately before entering her
home.
When we entered
Freda’s house all the guests were in the living room and I could hear
laughter. Freda brought me into the room
and introduced me to everyone. The room
was full of other local merchants and traders that were in the Ward’s family’s
line of work.
Hugo brought me a glass of wine and asked me,
“Are you going to the church social tomorrow with Freda?”
I said, “Why yes I
will.”
Hugo said, “Well
then you better drink up on your wine to help calm your nerves from all the
advances of the Memphis gentlemen
tomorrow.”
I smiled and said,
“Oh it’s not me that I fear they will be seeking tomorrow.”
Hugo said,
“Nonsense. You are a lovely girl in your
own right Alice.”
I blushed as Freda
came over to my side and said, “Hugo I swear I think you like my friends that I
bring to the house more than my own sister that you are married to.”
From across the
room Josie called for Hugo, “Hugo come over here and tell Arnold
about our new merchant packages that we are putting together.”
Hugo turned to
Josie and said, “Right away dear.”
Hugo turned back
to us and replied, “Yes Freda, I find young girls much more fascinating to
speak to then merchants.”
Hugo said to me
before leaving our party, “You are lucky Alice
I will not be attending the church social tomorrow or I would ask you for one
of those dances.”
I could feel my
face blush and Freda squeezed my hand and I took a big sip of wine. Freda said, “Hugo is insatiable. He has all the charm and wit of a 36 year old
man, but with all of his boyhood mannerism which makes him worse.”
Freda suggested,
“Let’s sneak away from this dreadful party up into my room?”
I said, “Oh what a
lovely idea Freda. Should I leave my
glass of wine down here?”
Freda replied, “Of
course not, bring it up with you.”
I followed Freda
up the stairs as I carried my glass of wine in one hand and the candle stick in
the other.
We entered Freda’s
room and no sooner had the door shut behind me Freda was pressing her lips
against mine. I tilted my head to the
side as we kissed and I opened my mouth as she opened hers’ and our tongues
touched one another. We both began
untying the back of our dresses as quickly as possible as if we were in a race
against one another. Our moans intensified
as both of our dresses fell from our bodies, only our slips separated our flesh
from finally touching one another. I
couldn’t wait as my hand went under Freda’s slip beneath her underwear and
between her legs. I could feel how wet
she was for me but what shocked me most of all, above all else, is that I felt
no hair between her legs. Freda moaned
as my hand touched her wet crotch and between the kisses I asked Freda, “Why is
there no hair there?”
Freda smiled and
said into my ear, “Hugo always told me of the women that he met in Paris
before Josie that they were clean shaven.
I was always fascinated by that and I took Hugo’s straight razor one day
and shaved what little hair I have right off.”
I had never heard
of such a thing. Here I am thinking that
I am going to teach Freda everything there is about love and sex and she has
surprised me. I grabbed her underwear with both hands and yanked it down to her
feet and yelled, “Now this I have got to see!”
Freda laughed and
tried to get away from me and asked, “You think I will be that easy of a catch
for you Alice? You think I will just be
an easy lady for you like Ms. Bloomfield?”
I smiled as I took
my underwear and slip off and was totally naked and said, “Oh you will never be
an easy lady like Ms. Bloomfield, you will just be my easy lady.”
Freda laughed as I
grabbed a hold of her and began kissing her and pushed her shoulder straps to
the side as her slip fell to the floor and we pressed our bare breasts against
one another. The kisses that I felt from
Freda were so soft and delicate. The
scent of her skin and the taste of her lips were that of lilies and fine
tea. Freda was so intoxicating to me and
I only hoped I was the same to her.
I pushed Freda
onto her bed and began kissing her down her neck and then down her large
perfect breast as my hand squeezed the other breast that I was not
kissing. My mouth went down her stomach
and I continued squeezing her breasts and hearing Freda moan. When I reached her clean shaven crotch I took
my hands and spread her legs as wide apart as I could as if I was spreading
open the pages of the greatest book I was ever going to read. My face dove in between her legs and I began
lapping up all of her juices as my tongue slid inside of her vagina and even
more juices flowed from Freda’s young beautiful body. I then brought my tongue above her vagina and
began rubbing my nose and tongue against her top portion of her vagina in a
circular and back and forth motion that began to make Freda’s body shake as she
reached her first orgasm.
I then went back
to licking Freda between the legs and my tongue slid below her vagina to her
anus and she began to even louder. Her
moans intensified my actions and I thought that she probably had never explored
this part of her own body yet and I slid my tongue into her anus as her body
relaxed and more juices flowed from within her vagina. I brought my mouth back up to her breast as
my fingers began to slide inside of her moist vagina. I slide two fingers in at first and then
another. Freda winced a little from this
and said, “I’ve never had something so thick inside of me.”
I smiled and began
rubbing the top of her vagina with my thumb as my three fingers began going in
and out of her rapidly and Freda’s body began to shake and quiver again as she
reached another orgasm.
After Freda had
her orgasm I kissed and smiled.
Freda said, “That
was amazing Alice. I didn’t know…my body could do all of that.”
I said, “I haven’t
even started on your body yet my love.”
I grabbed the long
white candle stick I had brought into the bedroom and jumped back on the bed
with it in my hand.
Freda’s eyes grew
large and she asked “What are you going to d…”
I placed my hand
over her mouth and kept her from speaking.
She tried to continue to speak and I said, “Shhhh Shhh my beautiful
lover.”
I began to slide
the candle stick inside of Freda’s wet vagina and her eyes widen in fear and
excitement. I ran my hand down from her
mouth to around her neck and as the candle stick was sliding in and out of her
and Freda wanted to scream out I choked her with my hand. Again Freda’s body began to shake as she had
another orgasm. When she was done
Freda’s body went limp and I finally stopped.
I pulled the long white candle stick out from between Fred’s vagina and
I was about to place it in her mouth as we both noticed the white candle stick
had turned red.
Freda sat up in
bed and looked at me in shock and horror and asked, “What, what, what is that?”
I smiled as I
looked at Freda and responded, “Blood my dear sweet Freda.”
Freda asked, “My
blood?”
“Oh yes your blood
indeed.” I said.
Freda looked
between her legs and asked, “How? Why? Am I hurt?”
I chuckled at her
naiveté and let her speak some more before answering her.
“Everything felt
so good…I didn’t even feel anything really painful.” She said.
I smiled and said,
“Freda, you are no longer a virgin.”
Freda looked
stunned. It took her a moment to process
everything and then she said, “You mean…you…took my virginity?”
I smiled and put
the candle stick in my mouth and then took it out and responded, “Yep.”
Freda grabbed me
and said, “Just hold me Alice. I want
this to be special.”
I dropped the
candle stick to the floor and lay next to Freda and began caressing her. I said, “This is special Freda. This is something that I have never
experienced with anyone else in my life.”
Freda asked, “But
all this sex stuff you have done with other people right?”
I said, “But it
has never felt like anything we are experiencing together right here right now
together. Trust me.”
Freda squeezed me
and our naked bodies both felt warm all over from our heads to our toes.
Chapter 14
We both began to
get dressed and we were kissing one another and giggling to as we touched each
other while putting our clothes back on.
“I’m sorry Alice
I didn’t um…were you satisfied?” Freda asked
I smiled at Freda
and said, “Oh I am quite satisfied Freda.
Don’t you worry about that.”
Freda said, “But
you did everything.”
I said, “Oh you
will have your chance my lovely Freda.
Besides I will take care of myself when I get home thinking about you
and all that we’ve done.”
We finished
getting dressed and Freda snickered as she asked, “Will you use a candle
stick?”
I smiled and said,
“I prefer something bigger.”
Freda put her hand
over her mouth and stammered, “Oh my.”
I said, “I have
grown a fondness for nice thick cucumbers.”
Freda said, “No.
You couldn’t.”
I grabbed Freda
around the waste and then put a hand around her neck and squeezed lightly and
placed my other hand in her mouth and pulled her lips apart as I said, “There
is so much I can do and will do to you Freda that you didn’t even know your
body was capable of doing.”
Then I kissed
Freda one last time before we left her room to return to the party down
stairs. Just before closing Freda’s
bedroom door behind me I look at her bed where we had just had sex and I could
smell our love making still in the air. I
took it all in and captured this moment in my head for eternity.
As we rejoined the
party non seemed to notice our absence as it had gotten late and there were so
many decanters of wine that had been emptied.
Freda walked me outside to her porch and said, “Tomorrow come and pick me
up around 3 o’clock.”
I kissed Freda and
said, “You bet I will.”
“I can’t
wait.” Freda responded.
“Night night
lover.” I waved to Freda and began the walk back to my home.
As the morning light broke through
my room. I rose with a smile on my face
thinking of last night’s romance with Freda and then giddy excitement as I
thought of our date together at the church social.
I open my wardrobe
and began laying out different dresses that I might wear to the event.
I made my way
downstairs and my parents were sitting at the breakfast table eating. I walked in and saw my father was reading the
Memphis Public Ledger newspaper and my younger brother Frank was next to him as
my mother was still busying herself over the oven.
Frank said, “Today
is the day of the big church social. All
the lads have been talking about it.”
My mother asked,
“Oh. Have any lads mentioned wanting the
hand of Alice for a dance or two?”
Frank sat up and
said, “Eww…I don’t want to know of any of my friends that would want the hand
of my sister.”
I replied, “Thanks
Frank.”
Frank laughed and
continued, “But a lot of the lads have been talking about your girlfriend Freda
Ward. I know a couple of the boys that
are going to be asking her hand today.”
I could feel my
body tense up from anger but I tried not to show it.
I asked, “Oh do
you know the names of any of Freda’s potential sooters?”
Frank said, “Well
I know there is Harry Bilger and Ash Roselle that have a bet going on who can
get Freda to dance with them first.”
I shouted, “Those
rats!”
The kitchen had
grown silent as everyone looked at me, even my father put down his newspaper to
peer at me.
“Everyone is treating
Freda as if she is some trophy or prize that every man is perusing just for
their own pride and accomplishment. No
one knows Freda like I know her and the woman that is inside the prize that
everyone wants.” I explained.
My father said,
“You are right Alice that is the
way that love should be pursued but this is Memphis.
And in Memphis it’s all about
having the biggest estate and the prettiest woman that keeps it for her Memphis
man. You know this Alice. No reason to be getting upset over it.”
“I know, it just
makes me sick how men are and all they care about is out doing each other with
all of their possessions and treating women as just one of them as well.”
My
father put his hand on mine and said, “Well I didn’t marry your mother because
she was a prized possession.”
My mother said, “George really!”
Frank laughed and my father smiled
at me and I returned his smile. I ate a
little and then went back up stairs to start to prepare for the church social.
I drew a bath and I found my
father’s straight razor. I took off my
clothes and I looked down between my legs at my hair over my Vagina and said
out loud, “Time to make you as pretty as Paris.” I began to lather my legs and in between for
a nice clean shave.
Chapter 15
As I brushed my
hair all of my thoughts kept falling on Alice. I never experienced anything like I was
feeling for Alice or ever acted on
it and it all felt so natural and wonderful.
Now I surrendered myself completely to Alice
I knew there would be no stopping this flood of emotions that overtook me now
and I kept thinking about what our wonderful future together would be like.
I
finished getting dressed and made my way down stairs.
Hugo said, “Don’t you look
enchanting Freda. I wish I was
accompanying you.”
“I bet you do.” I replied.
Hugo asked, “What time is Alice
coming to escort you to the dance?”
I said, “3 o’clock.”
Hugo replied, “Why it’s 3 o’clock right now.”
He looked outside the window and
then said, “And your dear Alice has
arrived.”
I opened up the door and saw Alice
waiving at me in coach and buggy as she just arrived.
Hugo draped my shaw over my
shoulders and Josie said, “Don’t stay out too late and keep your wits about
you. You don’t want to end up with
someone like Hugo.”
“Thank you. I’ll be fine.
Alice will take good care of
me.”
I ran out the door and down the
walk way to Alice’s awaiting buggy
and jumped inside of it with her.
Alice and I embraced but we did not
kiss with the sense that all eyes were watching us. The buggy driver asked, “Are you lovely
ladies all ready to go?”
Alice and I said at the same time,
“Yes!”
The buggy driver snapped the reins
and off we went towards the church with its bells chiming signaling to all that
the dance has begun.
We
arrived to the church and it was full of everyone young person of note across Memphis. All of my classmates from Higgins’ School for
Girls were at the church. There was a
reporter from Memphis Public Ledger along with a photographer snapping pictures
of everyone attending.
Inside
the church there was a band playing classical music and melodies of Memphis’s
heartland. All of the young men were on
one side of the church and the ladies were on the other with some couples that
successfully collaborated were dancing in the middle of the church.
I
could see the eagerness and hunger in the eyes of the young men as they fancied
me. I knew this was no social event but
a hunting ground that all the men are competing against one another. I felt a little bad for the young men because
little did they know that my heart belongs to the woman that is holding my arm
next to me. But I smiled at all of the
young men to be polite, only adding fire to their burning eyes.
A
couple of boys came over after being sparked by my smile and Alice
immediately dispatched them as she said, “We have just arrived gentlemen. You must give us time to remove our hat and
shaws.”
One of the young men said, “Perhaps
we can take those for you.”
Alice
said, “That will be fine.”
We both handed the young men our
hat, gloves, and shawls.
The boys hurried to have them
stored for us and Alice and I snickered at each with the ease that we command
over all of the young men.
A few other boys approached me for a dance and every time Alice
discouraged them and gave them orders to fetch us refreshments and anything
else we so desired.
We kept ourselves entertained and
kept talking quietly among ourselves of our passion towards one another and squeezing
our hands together. Several hours had
passed before we knew it when suddenly another pair of young gentlemen stood
before us with the look of absolute confidence.
One of the gentlemen asked, “My
ladies may we introduce ourselves?”
I looked at the young man who was
taller than me and his smile with his dimples caught my attention.
I responded, “Of course.”
I felt Alice’s
eyes on me but I did not turn to look at her and kept my attention on this
man.
He continued, “I am Harry Bilger
and this is my friend Ash Roselle.”
I said, “Very nice to meet you. I
am Freda Ward and my companion is Alice Mitchell.”
I looked at Alice who seemed very
pale as if the two men that stood in front of her were demons.
Harry then turned to Alice
and said, “I came across the room to ask you for a dance Alice
and I forced my dear friend Ash to accompany me as to not leave your friend
unattended.”
Alice
seemed to have been taken aback by this and her only response was, “Ok.”
Harry took Alice’s
hand and walked with her into the middle of the church and began dancing.
Ash took my hand and bowed politely
and asked, “Shall we my lady?”
I smiled and followed Ash into the
crowd of couples dancing together.
Ash put his hand on my waste and I
looked up at him. He was tall and skinny
with dark hair like mine.
Ash surprised me as he moved
gracefully across the dance floor with me.
I had been trained to dance since I was a little girl by French teachers
of Paris.
Ash looked down at me and smiled.
I looked up at him and asked, “Why
are you smiling so?”
Ash said, “Oh because our plan
worked?”
I asked, “What plan?”
“Well Harry and I had a wager on
who could get you to dance first.” Ash said.
“Oh.” I responded.
“And when we watched all of the
other men rejected all night by your companion we came up with this plan that
one of us would ask Alice’s hand
first to dance and not yours in order to get to you.”
I laughed and said, “I see. Well you have gotten to me.”
The song came to an end and Ash
looked into my eyes and asked, “Have I gotten to you beautiful Freda?”
I stepped back and covered my mouth
as Harry walked over to me and Ash took Alice’s
hand for another dance.
The music began to play again and
Harry pulled me tightly to him, much more forceful then Ash had been and we began
to dance. Harry was not quite as tall
and slender as Ash but he was charming with his dimples and hit light brown
hair and long eye lashes. Harry’s eyes
kept looking straight down at my bust that he tried press his chest against as
closely as he could while still being a gentleman inside a church.
Harry said, “Well did my friend
tell you our plan?”
“Aye that he did, you and Ash are
quite the thinkers.” I said.
Harry smiled and said look around
you. Everyone is looking at us because
we have finally gotten you away from your companion to dance. I started to look around and noticed the
photographer for the newspaper take a picture of Harry and I dancing together.
Harry said, “Oh we make a grand
couple together Freda. We will make the
front page of the Ledger.”
As the music began to stop I said,
“That would be nice.”
“It would be nice if I could see
you another time.” Harry replied.
Alice
began walking towards me across the church and I said, “Oh I don’t know Harry.”
Harry quickly said, “Well then if
we make the newspaper may I bring you a copy to your home?”
Alice
grabbed my hand to lead me away from Harry and I said, “Sure Harry.”
Alice was dragging me across the
church dance floor and saw a couple of my fellow girl friends from school
snicker at me as I past by.
I said, “Alice
you are hurting my wrist.”
“You are lucky that’s all I’m
hurting.” Alice
said.
We got out side and Alice
shoved me into the carriage.
She shouted at me, “How could you
do that to me Freda?”
I asked, “Do what?”
“You know good and well what you
have done.” Alice
said.
I said, “I’ve done nothing.”
Alice
said, “Not only did you allow those boys to dance with you. You encouraged them!”
I asked, “Encouraged them? How?”
I looked at Alice
whose face had changed so dramatically from the beautiful girl that I knew to a
face that frightened me.
“I saw it all with my own eyes. I saw the pictures being taken of you and
Harry. Freda do not take me for a fool.”
I said, “I’m sorry Alice. I didn’t know that Harry and I caused such a sensation.”
Alice
shouted, “A sensation in deed!”
Alice
commanded the buggy driver back to my house.
I kept pleading, “I’m sorry Alice. Forgive me.”
I leaned over and kissed Alice
on her lips and said, “I love you.”
Alice’s
expression began to soften and then she smiled as her land touched my lips and
she, “Oh Freda you are too beautiful to be mad at. Don’t take my heart that I have for you and
damage it. I won’t stand for it…ever.”
We held each other close during the
buggy ride back to my home and kissing each other lightly. I noticed the buggy driver would look back
every now and again to catch us kissing and I saw Alice
would get a little uncomfortable.
I said, “We don’t need to be shy
about our feelings for each other Alice.”
Alice
smiled and said loudly, “Well we are not here for this driver’s entertainment.”
The driver stopped turning around
after that and we soon reached my home.
Chapter 16
I took Freda’s hand and helped her
out of the carriage.
I paid the buggy driver and said,
“You already took your tip from us at our expense.”
The buggy driver shook his head
back and forth and took the fair money, “Whatever you say. You rich folks sure do strange things.”
We went inside and we were greeted
by Jo and Hugo.
We took off our shawls and sat down
in the living room.
Freda and I sat across from each
other in the living room.
Josie asked, “How was the dance
girls?”
Freda said, “Rather dull.”
Hugo handed us a glass of wine and
asked, “Weren’t the boys beating themselves up trying to dance with you both?”
Hugo looked at me and smiled and
added, “I know I would.”
Freda said, “Yes many boys asked to
dance with us but so many of them are so clumsy and immature.”
I smiled hearing Freda say that and
I felt more at ease about her feelings towards Ash and Harry.
Jo said, “Come on there had to be
some boys that caught your attention.”
I said, “Well Freda did capture the
attention of Harry Bilger and her picture was taken with him for the
newspaper.”
Jo said, “Oh how exciting!”
Freda looked at me and said, “I had
no idea that they were going to take our picture. Really the dance with Harry meant nothing.”
“I’m sure it meant something to
Harry.” Hugo continued.
“Everything a boy does with a woman
means something.” He smiled at me.
“I’ll go get you girls some wine. You must be thirsty from the excitement.”
I smiled at Hugo as he went off to
the kitchen.
Jo asked, “So what are your plans
now?”
Freda said, “Alice
is going to be staying over with me.”
Jo asked, “Oh did you bring clothes
with you?”
Freda said, “She’s just going to
barrow mine.”
Jo said, “Ok, well Hugo and I are
going into town, Hugo needs to attend some book keeping at the shop and he
wants to go out for a bit.”
Hugo came back with wine for Freda
and I and he said, “You girls can help yourself to as much wine as you like.”
Jo said, “Hugo, they are still
girls and they have school tomorrow.”
“And I have work tomorrow and we
are going to be out late tonight. They
will be fine. They are young
ladies. They should enjoy themselves.” Hugo said.
Jo said, “well girls be careful and
don’t stay up too late, ok.”
Freda said, “Yes, don’t worry we
will be good.”
I said, “Yes I’ll make sure Freda
stays nice and safe.”
Hugo said, “See a couple of good
girls we have here.”
Hugo went and got their jackets and
said, “Now let us go Josie and enjoy our evening out.”
Josie and Hugo left and we waved to
them as Hugo closed the door behind him.
As soon as the door closed, Freda
and I looked at each other and smiled.
Freda took a drink from her glass
as she kept looking at me and smiling.
I did the same. Freda took another drink of wine and licked
the wine from her plump lips and giggled.
I said, “Lift up your dress.”
Freda brought her dress up around
her waste and kept looking at me waiting for my next command.
I said, “Pull your undergarments
down.
Freda’s hands went from her hips on
her dress to underneath her dress and she pulled her undergarments down to her
feet.
I said, “Now pull your dress up
higher and spread your legs open.”
Freda pulled her dress all the way
up above her waste and I could see her bare buttocks pressed against her seat
and she kicked her undergarments off her feet and spread her legs wide open for
me.
I took a sip of wine and said,
“Very good.”
I said, “Now slide your fingers
inside of you.”
Freda began to slide one finger in
between her legs and move around in her chair with pleasure.
I said, “Good, now put another
finger in.”
Freda looked at me and said, “Ok.”
She slid in her middle and index
finger inside of her.
I leaned forward in excitement and
I could feel myself getting moist.
I said, “Now put another finger
inside of you.”
Freda looked at me with a little
uncertainty and said, “I don’t know if that will fit.”
I said, “Do it now.”
Freda slid another finger inside of
her vagina and began thrusting them inside of her as she moaned loudly.
I had my hand under my dress and
was rubbing my vagina over my undergarments.
Then I stood up and said, “Take
your hand out of your vagina and put your hand in your fingers in your mouth.”
Freda slid her wet fingers from her
vagina and then began sucking on them all.
I said, “Now undo the top of your
dress and pull your big boobs out while I find something of use for you.”
I went into the kitchen and on the
table was a bowl full of tomatoes and cucumbers. I grabbed the largest cucumber I saw that
looked nearly a foot long and a few inches thick with some parts of the
cucumber getting even thicker. I smiled
to myself and said, “Perfect.”
I marched back into the living room
with the giant cucumber behind my back.
Freda was sitting there with her legs spread open and her beautiful
shaved vagina glistening with her own juices.
Her large exposed boobs hung over her dress. I stood in front of her and said, “So you
want to dance with boys and then bed them to feel what a penis feels like do
you?”
I pulled the giant cucumber from
behind my back and said, “Well you are going to feel what it’s like to have
penis all night.”
Freda’s eyes grew large as she
looked at the size of the cucumber in my hand that didn’t even go around the
circumference of it.
She stammered, “But…how will that
fit?”
I knelt down in front of her and
said, “Spit on it.”
Freda spit on the cucumber and I
said, “More, a lot more.”
Freda kept spiting on the cucumber
and I spread her saliva all around it and then I kissed Freda and then began
kissing her breasts.
Freda was moaning in pleasure and
with one hand I felt how what her vagina was and then with the other I began to
insert the large cucumber inside of Freda.
Freda looked at me and her eyes
grew even larger as she felt the massive girth like she had never felt fill her
up. I kissed her lips as I began with
just the tip of the cucumber moving it back inside and out of her vagina as I
watched her vagina open up as she began accepting such a large object. Freda closed her eyes, groaned as she bit her
lip. I could feel myself growing wet
with excitement as I felt my own juices run through my undergarments and down
my legs. As Freda relaxed and accepted
the large object I kept sliding deeper and deeper inside of her. Whenever she would grimace in pain as it
stretch her open I put my hand around her neck and choked her lightly and as
she got passed the pain and allowed the massive cucumber further inside of her
I ran my hand up to her mouth and put my finger’s inside. She began sucking on my fingers and I began
thrusting the large cucumber inside of her back and forth as she groaned. I moved Freda off the chair and laid her down
on the floor in the middle of the living room.
I kissed her lips as I thrust the cucumber all the way inside of her and
said, “I love you.”
Freda couldn’t speak with the
massive object between her legs and could only moan but she smiled a bit as she
bit her lip again. I continued choking
her and running my hand in her mouth and pulling her mouth open as I worked the
cucumber in Freda. Freda whole body
shook violently for the last time as she moaned loudly. I knew she had reached her final orgasm. I began pulling the massive cucumber slowly
from between her legs and I could see not only all of her clear vagina juices
that ran down to her buttocks but as I pulled the cucumber out I could see this
white film that her vagina produced. It
was Freda’s orgasm, her cum, making the cucumber shine in front of me.
After I pulled the shining cucumber
out of Freda’s vagina she looked at me and smiled. I then took the dripping wet cucumber and put
it in Freda’s mouth and pulled on her nipples while doing so. I forced the cucumber as far into Freda’s
mouth as I could and Freda began sucking and I pulled harder on her
nipples. Then after Freda had sucked as
much of her own juices from the cucumber I brought it to my mouth and lick
it. Then I pulled my wet undergarments
down and removed them and quickly brought my waist over Freda’s mouth and
pulled her head into my vagina. I could
feel Freda’s tongue slide in between my legs as her hands cupped my buttocks
and I began to moan. I could feel my
juices flood out of me as I grew in excitement that the most beautiful girl I
had ever laid eyes on had surrendered herself to all of my desires, obsessions,
and lust. I knew that Freda was not just
merely another lover, but she was a lover like no other I would ever find in my
life time. Freda was the love of my
life.
I
sat down on Freda’s face and had multiple orgasms at the thought of this and as
Freda lick and swallowed as much of my juices as she could, while at times I
made it difficult for her to even breathe as I thrust my vagina on her nose and
mouth. I could feel Freda’s finger slide
inside of my anus as my entire body was wet and ready to receive anything that
Freda would offer. I sat entirely on
Freda face and my body shook as I had my final orgasm and I squeezed my own
breast.
Then
I moved off of Freda’s face and dropped down next to her on the floor. My body still shook as I lay next to her from
the intensity of my orgasm. Freda’s hand
touched mine and we clasped them together and squeezed them tightly. I turned to Freda and said, “I love you.”
Freda looked at me and said, “I
love you.”
I said, “I’ll love you forever
Freda.”
Freda said, “And I will love you
forever Alice.”
I smiled and said, “Promise Freda?”
Freda said, “Of course Alice,
I promise.”
Chapter 17
Freda and I went up to her room and got into
bed together. We stared at each other
and kept kissing each other and touching each other lightly. Not another word was spoken between us and
not a word needed to be said. We kept
kissing each other until our touching grew calmer and we both started drifting
off to sleep but our lips never stopped touching one another even as we fell
asleep.
“Come
on girls time to get ready for school.”
We heard Josie say through the bedroom door as she knocked on it to wake
us up. Freda and I jumped up awake in
bed and we began scrambling around Freda’s room trying to compose ourselves from
last night’s intensity. Freda went over
to her wardrobe and I opened it and began throwing dresses on her bed and said,
“You will look wonderful in this dress Alice.”
Then she changed her mind and said,
“No, I think I would like you better in this one.”
Freda put on a nice light blue
dress with white lace and tied with a big white ribbon in the back and I wore the
yellow and white dress that Freda had worn the first day I met her.
We rushed out of the Freda’s house
and took a buggy too school.
When
we entered Higgin’s school for girls, everyone was talking about the church
social in hysteria. Everyone swarmed
Freda and showed her the picture of her dancing with Harry on the front page of
the Memphis Ledger. I found myself being
pushed back away from Freda by the crowd of girls that surrounded us.
I heard voices ask Freda, “So when
will be the wedding between you and Harry?”
Another voice, “How will you ever
decide who to pick now that every boy in town pursues you?”
I felt myself growing in anger and
I wanted to shout at everyone, “Freda is mine now and forever!”
But I could not and watched the
swarm of hens clucking around the beautiful swan that I adored with all of my
heart.
I thought to myself, Please
Freda don’t ever leave me. I need you in
my life. I have to have you in my
life. Please don’t leave me.
The bell rang for class and Freda
looked for me and grabbed my hand as we walked to class together.
Freda said, “Please don’t be mad at
me Alice. I had no idea this would
happen. My heart and body is with you.”
I looked at Freda and wondered if
she saw the concern and desperation and asked, “Forever Freda?”
Freda said, “Just as I told you
last night Alice, Forever.”
“Good.” I replied.
Freda leaned over and kissed me on
the lips to reassure me and I felt myself blush by her openness and I said,
“Not here Freda. You know what all of
these hens will start doing if they were to know of our relationship.”
Freda said, “I don’t care. Let all of Memphis
know about us. I’m not ashamed.”
I was stunned by Freda’s openness
and I felt such reassurance that she truly was mine now and forever. We both went into class and kept looking at
each other with passion throughout the day.
It was the best day of school I ever had and I don’t remember a word
Mrs. Bloomfield said.
Chapter 18
After school our buggy stopped at
my house and I told Alice, “Goodbye
my love.”
And kissed her on her lips.
Alice
said, “Goodbye. I can’t wait to be with
you again.”
“Soon my love, soon.” I replied
As I started to walk back to my
home I was startled by a sudden explosion from behind the bushes of our garden
as Ash jump in front of me.
I nearly feel off my feet.
Ash grabbed my hand quickly to make
sure I did not fall and said, “You are finally home!”
I asked, “How long were you waiting
there?”
Ash said, “Oh for a little while. I
ran over right after school. Of course
my school is closer then Higin’s School for Girls.”
I said, “Indeed.”
And I asked, “So what brings you
here?”
Ash responded, “Well...you Freda.”
I said, “Oh. I see.”
Ash said, “I wanted to see you
before every man in Memphis comes
calling for you.”
I began to walk up my porch and
asked, “Is that what you are doing Ash?
Calling on me?”
Ash stood up straight and I
marveled at his long, lean figure.
“I would like to if you will allow
me the honor?” He asked.
I sat down on my bench and said,
“Oh Ash…if it were only that simple?”
Ash asked, “May I?”
“Sure.” I said as Ash sat down next to me on the bench.
“Ash you seem like a wonderful,
handsome, young man…but, well, my life is complicated.”
Ash asked, “Complicated? How?
By other men calling on you?”
I just looked at him and smiled and
said nothing.
Ash said, “There is nothing
complicated about this. This is pretty
straight forward. If I like you and you
like me and I come calling on you and you accept, well, it’s pretty simple from
there on out.”
I looked at Ash’s hair that was
nearly as dark as my own and in his warm dark brown eyes and thought to my
self, Such a handsome young man. I
can see myself finding happiness with you.
I find happiness in your smile.
Ash stood up in front of me and
asked, “Well Freda? Will you accepted
me?”
I said, “Oh Ash, it’s just…”
“Just what?” Ash pressed on.
I said, “It’s, well, I do like
you. I just don’t know.”
“Is it Harry? Did he beat me to you?”
I looked at Ash and said nothing.
Ash continued asking, “Did you
already accept Harry?”
I said, “No it’s not that.”
“What in God’s name is it then
Freda?”
Ash began pacing in front of me,
looking down at his feet and then looking at me.
“Is it your girlfriend Alice? I’ve seen you two holding hands and kissing
each other on the lips.”
I still said nothing but I could
feel my face become read as I felt intense pressure from Ash. I almost wanted to shout, “I love Alice! She is my lover.”
But I said nothing only increasing
Ash’s frustration.
Ash said, “Well then. I do not wish to inconvenience you any
further.”
Ash tipped his head down at me,
turned and left the porch. Ash walked to
the end of our walkway and just before leaving he looked back at me one last
time.
I
felt so many emotions race through my body and I wanted to cry. And cry I did. As I sat on my porch sobbing suddenly I saw Alice
coming up the walk. Alice
had in her hand a basket. Alice
came up to the porch and saw me crying.
She placed the basket down that was full of vegetables and flowers and
she asked with a concerned look on her face, “Why are you crying Freda?”
I couldn’t respond as my emotions
poured from me.
Alice
looked down the walk and said, “I saw Ash walking down the street when I
approached. Did he come by to visit
you?”
Alice
got down on her knee and held my hand and asked, “Did Ash come calling for you
Freda?”
All I could do was nod my head up
and down, yes.
Alice
look at me and her face changed from concern for my well being to freight as
she asked, “Did you accept?”
I began crying even more and
motioned my head back and forth, no.
Alice
took my hand and kissed it and held my arm close to her face and said, “Thank
God Freda. Thank God for you Freda.”
Alice
sat next to me on my bench and she pushed away some of my tears and then
grabbed my face and kissed me. We
embraced each other as we kissed and I could feel tears fall on my face but not
of my own.
Alice
pulled me away and said, “I can’t live without you Freda. I can’t lose you.”
I said, “You won’t Alice. You won’t ever lose me. I’ll always be yours forever.”
Alice
stood up and looked at me as she said, “Maybe we could move to Boston
together.”
I looked at Alice
with perplexed and asked, “What do you mean?”
Alice
began passing in front of me as I could see her mind racing to grasp the
perfect plan.
“I know what must be done.” Alice
said with new found excitement.
“We can’t stay here like this. We will never be accepted for who we are
together in Memphis. We have to move to Boston,
it’s the only place that we will be able to live our lives together in peace.”
I asked, “Why Boston? How do you know it’s any better there for
us?”
Alice
said, “I’ve heard about Boston and
the North East, Freda. It’s more
cosmopolitan with large buildings in the city.
My father traveled there for business and told me that everyone in the
city is too busy to pay anyone else any mind.”
I looked at Alice
with new found cheer as her words were spoken with such passion that I found
myself growing excited as she continued speaking.
“There is nothing for us here in Memphis
where everyone pries at every step we take together and our words spoken to one
another. And now the newspapers are
writing about you, you have become the most famous girl in all of Memphis.”
I asked, “But what shall we do for
money if we run away together?”
Alice
responded quickly as if she had been thinking about a way for us to escape for
some time, “I shall take my father’s clothes and I will cut my hair and dress
as a man and find a job for us and you will be introduced as my wife where ever
we travel to Boston.”
“Ok Alice, I will go with you and
you will be my husband.”
Alice
touched my legs as she smiled at me with such a powerful energy over me, almost
dominating as if there was no way to stop our path together, our destiny
together.
Alice
said, “Good I will start saving money for us all summer then.”
Alice
kissed me and asked, “I will come over tonight and we can discuss this further,
ok?”
“Of course Alice.” I sat there smiling at Alice.
Alice
turned and walked off the porch turning back at me often and blowing me a kiss
before leaving the end of my walkway.
Chapter 19
I sat at the
dinner table as I listened to Hugo and Josie go on about how I was the talk of
the town after being in the newspaper and Hugo had brought home several extra
copies that he framed and put up around the house. But as they spoke I just kept thinking about
my Alice, about her passion for me,
for us together. I was so nervous
with the thought of running away but Alice
seems so sure of herself, as if she will make everything work out no matter
what. I felt like this must be what true
love, when you know you want to be with that person no matter what our
circumstances would be together. I am
willing to walk away from the comfort and security of my life that I have now
with my family to be with Alice
and she is willing to do the same. This
is undeniably true love, this must be.
As Hugo was kept
talking all dinner long as Hugo was always doing there was a knock at the
door. I felt myself become flush with
excitement at the thought of seeing Alice
tonight. Hugo got up from the table to
answer the door. I waited impatiently at
my seat as I looked at Jo.
Jo said, “You seem
excited Freda. Were you expecting
someone tonight?”
“Yes, Alice
said she would come over tonight.” I
replied.
“Alice
again? You spend entirely too much time
with that girl.” Insisted Jo.
Hugo came back to
dining table and introduced our guest.
“Freda, Harry
Bilger has come to see you this evening.”
There stood Harry
with his chest pushed out like a red breasted robin and he was holding a copy
of today’s newspaper with us in it. I
put my hand of my face. I was so sick of
seeing myself in the stupid newspaper.
Harry came over to
me and asked, “You’ve seen us in today’s Memphis Gazzet right Freda?”
I responded, “Yes,
yes, Harry. There is no avoiding us in
the paper or you for that matter.”
Harry kept smiling
and pushing ahead as my insult made no difference in is pre planned actions of
trying to win me over.
He continued, “We
make a fine couple together if I do say so myself.”
Hugo said, “Let me
take a look at that picture of you two together.”
Hugo took the
paper from under Harry’s arm and he eyeballed it saying, “Yep, he reminds me a
bit of myself, a young Hugo if you will?”
I said, “Yes, too
much of yourself I’m afraid.”
Jo said, “Oh you
do make an excellent couple together.”
Harry said, “Just
imagine how sturdy and strapping our children would be together Freda.”
I let out a loud
sigh and said, “I have no interest in ‘sturdy and strapping’ children
Harry. I care more about kind and loving
children.”
Harry said, “Why
of course all of that and strapping like their dad.”
“Oh my, you sound
more like a horse that needs to be left in the stable then any father I would
have of my children.”
Harry said, “Well
yes, I do like to consider myself quite the stallion.”
Harry grinned from
ear to ear at his own wit.
“More like an ass
then a stallion.”
Harry’s face
became red and Hugo said, “Why don’t I get us all some wine to take the bite
out of such quick wit?”
Jo said, “That’s a
great idea Hugo. Do make yourself comfortable
and have a seat next to Freda Harry.”
Jo shot me a
glance of displeasure and said, “She won’t bite you I can promise you that
Harry. Freda just like’s to speak her
mind more often then she should.”
Harry composed
himself and said, “With a tongue as sharp as Freda’s I’m sure a little time
over my knee with the back of my hand will soften that tongue right up.”
“Sometimes women
need to be put in there place. I had to
break Jo as well a couple of times.”
Hugo added.
I replied, “The
only thing you’ve ever broken in Hugo are your pants.”
Hugo smiled and looked
at Harry as he handed him a glass of wine and said, “I’ve heard talk in town of
women going as far as wanting the right to vote. What are your thoughts on that Harry?”
“Vote for
what? What do women need to vote
for?” Harry asked
I said, “To change
this male favored and dominated society.”
Harry said,
“Change our society? Look around you
dear Freda. Look at what our society has
allotted you in life. You live a life of
wealth and privilege that most of Americans will never get to live. There is only us, the wealthy, and them, the
poor. You don’t need to start voting and
changing what you have right now because you have it unbelievably well.”
Harry looked at Jo
and asked, “Let’s hear from another woman.
Wouldn’t you agree Josie?”
Josie said, “I
think it is just Freda is so young and naïve.
She doesn’t know how rough and cruel the real world is outside of the
golden gates of Memphis.”
Hugo and Harry
both laughed.
I asked, “So you
don’t think I could survive on my own outside of Memphis?”
Harry said, “Not
for a moment. You are a woman you can’t
even hold a respectable job.”
Josie said, “Harry
is right Freda, you need to find a suitor from within our circle that you will
marry and live the lifestyle that you have always known.
I rolled my eyes
and said, “Everything I’ve ever known of this lifestyle and the people that are
in it makes me sick.”
Just then there
was another knock at the door and I went to get up but Jo said, “Sit down
Freda. You don’t want to be rude to your
guest Harry. I will see who is at the
door.”
"I
was in love with Freda. I could not live without her. Long ago we made a
compact that if we were ever separated we should kill each other. When I found
that Josie had forbidden Freda to have anything more to do with me I saw
nothing else to do but to kill her. I took father's razor, but told no one what
I was going to do."
"As
she got back into the buggy," said Miss Johnston. "I asked her what
was the matter. She replied: 'I have cut Freda's throat; I don't know that I
have killed her; I loved her so I could not help it.'"
Both Moved
in the Best Circles of Memphis and
Society There is Shocked—The Murderess Seized Her Victim on the Street, and
After the Act Jumped Into Her Carriage With the Cry, "Drive on, I've Done
It."
