Chasing Stars or am I a Star on ABC?

My ex-girlfriend and I were both 20yrs old and lying in my bed in my room at my foster parent's house in Red Bank, NJ. I had sticker stars all up in my bedroom and my ex-girlfriend and I were looking at the stars on the ceiling of my room naked as we often did back then together. I said to her, "I am a huge meteor burning through space and I am going to become something huge, magnificent in my life. I don't know what yet, but I will be something amazing with all of my energy, creativity and talent that I have. Or I will blow up trying...just promise me you will always stay by my side through it all." My ex-girlfriend said, "I promise."
My ex-girlfriend left me shortly after when she turned 21 and got new dude dick every time she went out at night without me...

The moment has arrived in my life where we will see if I will be going off to Hollywood all expenses paid as a finalist with ABC for Bachelorette. If I accomplish this, it's sort of like winning the lottery. Everyone at work keeps asking me when I'm going to be on TV. People say things like, "Over New Year's there were Bachelor commercials and I was screaming, 'I know someone going on that show!'" This is all overwhelming at this point. The pressure to make it is overwhelming. It's all out of my hands. I keep second guessing myself if some of the things I write and have done over the internet might have bitten me in the ass...but it's too late for that. I like writing what I write and if I tried to change what I write or how I write I'd stop. My three best friends are God, the Devil, and Jesus Christ and we will all party together either in Heaven and Hollywood or straight to Hell. ABC said that they will contact me by mid January to let me know if I'm going to Hollywood. They told me to have my passport and drivers license up to date till 2013, they are. I put in my time off work for the end of January for Hollywood. Now I just need ABC to contact me and give me the green light. Come on God don't fail me now...all the other times you did when I called on you as a kid I will let go as long as you pull through now. You were spot on God about me beating cancer but the pressure of this is even worse...